• Journal Entry

    It’s all rubbish

    October 17, 2025

    My sleep schedule is so screwed up. I’m managing, but until internet gets hooked up, all I have to do is listen to podcasts and unpack what is essentially sentimental junk. I have a lot of books and clothes. There are a few boxes of miscellaneous stuff. Who is that woman? Marie Kondo. She tells people to question whether something brings them joy. other people have suggested having a bin for trash, a bin for donating, and a bin for keeping. Well, the bin for keeping is the cupboard above my bedroom closet. And the bin for trash is the…

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    My Thoughts

    Meandering Mind

    May 28, 2024

    A personal reflection on addiction, its impact on life, and the ongoing battle to manage it. A candid late-night exploration of nicotine, food, and self-awareness.

  • Daily Prompt - Therapy

    Amazon TED Talk

    December 4, 2023

    The best parts of shopping online are: The worst parts about shopping online are: Thank you listening to my TED talk. I ordered some Tarot cards. It’s a part of one of my SMART Goals. To develop my spirituality more. I think that’s an on-going process for life. Why did the goal break up with the New Year’s resolution? Because it wasn’t SMART enough – it needed more specific commitment! Another way I’m fulfilling this goal is by learning about Stoicism. I’m currently reading a book about it. “How,” might you ask, “is philosophy related to spiritualism?” “Well!” I might…

  • Journal Entry

    Interpreting Dreams of Crawling Lures

    November 22, 2023

    I had another really strong dream. It was more of a nightmare. I kept seeing all these lures crawling through a house toward the windows. They were those rubber lures that looked like worms. Everywhere I looked, I saw them. They would appear out of nowhere, tiny, super tiny. They would grow and begin crawling toward the nearest window, and grow while they did. Growing large like a finger in diameter by the time they got to the walls. Then they would crawl up the walls and out the window. I remember being thankful that they were leaving but like,…

  • Journal Entry

    Secret Shame

    November 16, 2023

    Yesterday ended on a very heavy topic. Shame. We watched this very brief video and then began discussing the difference between shame and guilt. Then we went into the book… The part that resonated with me was about secret shame. Here’s a photo of the section in the book. Read the whole paragraph. I had to read it 5+ times before it really sank in. I think all of this relates to me, but I’m not sure. I want to process it. There’s a lot to unpack though, as is usual with therapy. But, I think it’s why I blocked…

  • Therapy

    More Regulations! No, not that kind.

    November 14, 2023

    Today's focus was on emotion regulation and its pivotal role, especially for individuals managing BPD. We explored the nuances of emotional intelligence, internal and external triggers, and delved into the ABC PLEASE model. A striking revelation was the simultaneous experience of contrasting emotions and the importance of acknowledging the complexity inherent in our emotional landscape.

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    Everyday Mindfulness

    November 13, 2023

    In this blog post, we explore the transformative power of mindfulness and the importance of achieving a "Wise Mind." Discover how to observe, describe, and participate in your life, while embracing the concept of loving detachment. Join us on this journey to enhance self-awareness and well-being.

  • Therapy

    Emotional Regulation

    November 13, 2023

    One of the areas that I’m working on with my therapist is emotional regulation. Emotional regulation refers to the ability to manage and control one’s emotions healthily and constructively. It involves the capacity to understand, express, and modulate one’s feelings, so they are appropriate to the situation and do not lead to impulsive or disruptive behaviors. Effective emotional regulation is crucial for maintaining stable relationships, making sound decisions, and coping with life’s challenges. Emotional regulation can be challenged by various factors, including biological predispositions. Some individuals may have a genetic or neurological predisposition that makes it more difficult for them…

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    Visceral Flashbacks

    November 9, 2023

    The author recounts a traumatic past relationship marked by co-dependence, manipulation, jealousy, emotional abuse and infidelity. A therapy session highlighting values, relationship red flags, and dealing with trauma brought forth overwhelming memories of these experiences. The author's ex-partner's lack of consideration and unkind accusations, stemming from his potential antisocial personality disorder, amplified the author's own struggle with borderline personality disorder, adding emotional intensity, conflict, and trauma to the relationship.