• Journal Entry

    One Thing I Would Do Differently

    Explore a touching personal narrative of love, loss, and learning. Journey with our writer as he recounts his experiences from being a barista, falling in love, facing family challenges, and the painful realization of his own mistakes. An honest reflection on relationships, patience, and the wisdom gained from hindsight, this post will resonate with anyone who has loved and learned.

  • Journal Entry - Therapy

    A Weekend of Joy, Productivity, and Connection

    This weekend's looking busy but fun! I'm set to chat about a website redesign for a friend's business, an awesome project that will pump up my portfolio. I'm also catching up with an old mate over some grub, jumping into a D&D session, and making my basement space comfier with my great-aunt. On top of this, there's room for some AI work and blog tweaking. Staying scheduled to dodge old bad habits, but all these plans are stuff I love!

  • Therapy

    Visceral Flashbacks

    The author recounts a traumatic past relationship marked by co-dependence, manipulation, jealousy, emotional abuse and infidelity. A therapy session highlighting values, relationship red flags, and dealing with trauma brought forth overwhelming memories of these experiences. The author's ex-partner's lack of consideration and unkind accusations, stemming from his potential antisocial personality disorder, amplified the author's own struggle with borderline personality disorder, adding emotional intensity, conflict, and trauma to the relationship.

  • Therapy

    Schemas

    We learned in more depth what “schemas” are and how they affect us. For example, a big schema for me is abandonment or fear of abandonment. This schema plays out in my relationships in such a way that I tend to push people away before they can push me away. This also falls in line with my BPD. Our workbook defines schemas as “enduring negative patterns that develop during childhood or adolescence.” There are a lot of different schemas, but here are some of mine and examples of how they manifest: To people looking in from the outside, some of…

  • Journal Entry

    Today…

    Well, today has been a shit show. This morning, I was not in the best of moods. I was able to calm down after I got some more rest though. Luckily, I got paid so I was able to get some new socks. Six pairs. I’m definitely grateful for that, and I was able to get a vape and pay my great aunt back some of the money I owe her. My next payment has to go to her and cat food. Then, I hope I’m caught up on nearly everything that I need. Tonight, I met a cousin of…

  • Uncategorized

    IDK YOU DECIDE

        God damnit. I hate when people make decisions for you without your consent. I hate when they think they know what’s best for you. I hate it when they don’t take your needs or wants into consideration. I just wish everyone that says they loved me would show me a little more respect. If you’re not going to give me the respect to grab my own shit, at least communicate that with me.      I was supposed to go and clean out my old room with family. I had asked to be a part of that. I know…