• Daily Prompt - Therapy

    Amazon TED Talk

    December 4, 2023

    The best parts of shopping online are: The worst parts about shopping online are: Thank you listening to my TED talk. I ordered some Tarot cards. It’s a part of one of my SMART Goals. To develop my spirituality more. I think that’s an on-going process for life. Why did the goal break up with the New Year’s resolution? Because it wasn’t SMART enough – it needed more specific commitment! Another way I’m fulfilling this goal is by learning about Stoicism. I’m currently reading a book about it. “How,” might you ask, “is philosophy related to spiritualism?” “Well!” I might…

  • Journal Entry - Therapy

    Treatment Plan

    November 10, 2023

    I've been working closely with my therapist to tackle my Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) symptoms, focusing primarily on emotional deregulation, a distorted sense of reality, and an ever-changing sense of self. My therapy plan is getting a week-long extension, allowing for more individual time with my therapist. More reality checks are a key part of my recovery.

  • Journal Entry - Therapy

    Today I’m having trouble with… PEOPLE

    November 8, 2023

    For the most part, I really enjoy the treatment program that I’m in. I feel that CBT & DBT really resonate with me. Not only does it make logical sense, but it’s very relaxed and forgiving. I really think that had it been strict and regimented, I would be in opposition to it the whole time. Everything that I’ve learned through treatment has proven useful in a lot of ways. Not only with addiction recovery, but depression, anxiety, mood stabilization, dealing with stressors, and more. Today, however… Today has been difficult. I left the house feeling annoyed today. I don’t…

  • Therapy

    Trauma and Tomorrow

    November 7, 2023

    First group, we spoke a bit about trauma. I think we’re supposed to touch on the subject but the way I’ve been reacting to things and bringing to my therapist makes me think they’re preparing me for the possibility that I may not be equipped to go through trauma based therapy yet. They spoke of the importance of having stability in one’s life before beginning trauma therapy. I can see the importance of that for sure. Stability though. I have had glimpses of that throughout my life but it’s always been just out of reach. Sorry, side note. It’s freaking…

  • Uncategorized

    IDK YOU DECIDE

    November 1, 2023

        God damnit. I hate when people make decisions for you without your consent. I hate when they think they know what’s best for you. I hate it when they don’t take your needs or wants into consideration. I just wish everyone that says they loved me would show me a little more respect. If you’re not going to give me the respect to grab my own shit, at least communicate that with me.      I was supposed to go and clean out my old room with family. I had asked to be a part of that. I know…

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    Sleep. Sweet, sweet sleep

    October 23, 2023

        This will be a short post. I took my sleeping pill last night, and I got really good sleep! I forgot that the sleeping pill leaves me with a hangover in the morning. It I kind of had a headache at the front of my head, my nose is like stuffy and hurts and like my whole front of the face is like congested and in pain. And I am still super tired, and that’ll last for a couple hours. The only thing that will kick me out of this is caffeine and so I’m sitting in the garage…