Renegade

A friend asked me to go out for New Years Eve. Without thinking, I agreed. Then before bed, while trying to figure out how much money I would need to set aside I realized that I am in treatment. Despite treatment being over by that time, I still won’t be drinking. My thoughts went to how much money that will save me. It would be much cheaper to go out to a bar without having to worry about drinking.

However, I realized everyone else will be drinking and that would be way too much temptation. I don’t think I’m ready for that level of temptation. I had a dream about it and had to send him a message about not being able to go. I feel bad reneging on the offer.

On a lighter note, here’s the etymology of the word “reneg:”

The word “reneg” is likely a variation of the word “renegade,” which refers to someone who deserts or betrays their cause or group.^[1] The English word “renegade” is thought to have been adapted in the mid-16th century from the Spanish word “renegado,” meaning “a Christian who became a Muslim.”^[1]¹ The Spanish term, in turn, comes from the Medieval Latin “renegatus,” the past participle of “renegare,” meaning “to deny.”^[1]¹

Sources:

1. Harper, Douglas. “renegade.” Online Etymology Dictionary, https://www.etymonline.com/word/renegade. ↩ ↩²