Late last night, or rather early this morning was really difficult. I’m staying with my great aunt and she spends a lot of her time babysitting one of her great-grandchildren. He’s a great kid, very articulate, smart and friendly. Lots of energy! Well, yesterday his parents asked my great-aunt if she would be willing to watch him overnight last night. I guess they said they wanted to go out for dinner and then get some rest. They had not been resting well at night.      She got him into bed rather early, between 8 PM and 9 PM. She…

 All of the meth must be out of my system. My fucked up dopamine receptors are triggering the RLS again. Back to sleepless nights. At least when I was on meth, I had no interest in sleeping. I had energy and I could do stuff. Even if it was stupid meaningless stuff. During my three months of sobriety before my recent relapse, the only way I could sleep was if I pushed through and gave up the idea of sleep for 3-4 days. I’ve always struggled with insomnia. But after 30 hours of being awake, I could crash. Meaning, I…

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