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Daily writing prompt

Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.

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I don’t know. I tend to feel out of place quite often. There is one place that I feel entirely in place, and that is next to Bubba.

In all seriousness though, I tend to feel out of place most times. I have a difficult time around people because I’m always worried that I am doing something or saying something wrong. I’ve always felt different from everyone. I feel as though I think and act in a way that is incongruent with most people.

“Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is the richness of self.”

May Sarton

Here, I’ll give you an example. The hyper-sexualization of everything, especially in media. Everybody seems to be obsessed with sex. I enjoy it, don’t get me wrong. But I’m not compelled to think about it every moment of every day. There are some people (primarily guys that I can think of) who are consumed by the idea of sex.

I enjoy it but with the right person. I guess that’s why I don’t fit in with that aspect of society. There are other aspects of society that I have difficulty with. For example, I tend not to think before I speak. I bet that’s evident by this blog. I tend to word vomit frequently. This tends to get me into a lot of quarrels.

There are forgiving people out there though, so I tend to make friends. I just know that I come off as weird to most people. There are a lot of times that I meet people in video games and we begin to get to know each other and then they stop talking to me. I know this is because I’m different. Most of the time I don’t really care, but sometimes it really gets to me. There’s a lot of loneliness to deal with. Which, I think I’ve written about loneliness before. It’s an epidemic in the world right now. I think fortunate in a lot of ways though. I don’t find myself as lonely as a lot of other people. I think that’s because I’m able to be by myself. I’m able to spend a lot of time alone not only with the help of other oddball online people, but because I’ve spent a lot of time alone and I’m comfortable with it.

I know, that probably sounds sad. I’ve been single most of my life. That means very little companionship. Bubba is about the most companionship I’ve had my entire life. He’s a good companion, too. I’m very lucky to have him in my life.

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“Our society is obsessed with the idea of ‘fitting in.’ But fitting in is actually a very dangerous thing. When you fit in, you stop thinking critically, you stop challenging the status quo.”

Ayaan Hirsi Ali

Take care.