Taking a break during lunch, I'm reflecting on my journey dealing with addiction, borderline personality disorder (BPD), and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Recognizing I won't achieve perfection, I've noticed progress in coping skills and early identification of mood shifts. Despite repeated group reviews, I feel closer to a "typical life" and am determined to sustain this positive momentum.
I refrained from blogging yesterday to allocate time for a one-on-one session with my therapist, delving into significant aspects of childhood trauma. It's an arduous process, but imperative for personal growth. Simultaneously, my day off facilitated substantial progress on a friend's website, contributing to my evolving portfolio. Additionally, the escalating costs of various necessities present a considerable challenge in contemporary times. The intricate nature of adult responsibilities remains an ongoing struggle.
In this blog, I reflect on my journey through recovery, navigating life changes and housing struggles. Amidst newfound stability, I encountered unexpected temptations, leading to a brief stint in the world of Party and Play. Little did I realize, this marked the beginning of a complex romantic entanglement with intriguing twists and hidden red flags.
Today's focus was on emotion regulation and its pivotal role, especially for individuals managing BPD. We explored the nuances of emotional intelligence, internal and external triggers, and delved into the ABC PLEASE model. A striking revelation was the simultaneous experience of contrasting emotions and the importance of acknowledging the complexity inherent in our emotional landscape.
Embarking on the transformative journey of recovery, I initially relied on "2 Takeaways" for daily reflections. The shift to SMART goals, with their specificity and measurability, marked a pivotal evolution. Challenging myself with diverse objectives, I broke free from routine, discovering untapped resilience. This journey celebrates the beautiful complexities of healing through intentional, varied goals.
One of the areas that I’m working on with my therapist is emotional regulation. Emotional regulation refers to the ability to manage and control one’s emotions healthily and constructively. It involves the capacity to understand, express, and modulate one’s feelings, so they are appropriate to the situation and do not lead to impulsive or disruptive behaviors. Effective emotional regulation is crucial for maintaining stable relationships, making sound decisions, and coping with life’s challenges. Emotional regulation can be challenged by various factors, including biological predispositions. Some individuals may have a genetic or neurological predisposition that makes it more difficult for them…
So, on Friday we learned about something called the Transtheoretical Model for Changing Habits. The Transthereotical Model (TTM), also known as the stages of change model, is a theory of behavior change that describes how people progress through six stages as they change their behavior: The TTM is not a linear model. People may move back and forth between stages as they progress through the change process. For example, someone who is trying to quit smoking may start in the precontemplation stage, then move to the contemplation stage, then back to the precontemplation stage, and so on. Eventually, they may…
This weekend's looking busy but fun! I'm set to chat about a website redesign for a friend's business, an awesome project that will pump up my portfolio. I'm also catching up with an old mate over some grub, jumping into a D&D session, and making my basement space comfier with my great-aunt. On top of this, there's room for some AI work and blog tweaking. Staying scheduled to dodge old bad habits, but all these plans are stuff I love!
I've been working closely with my therapist to tackle my Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) symptoms, focusing primarily on emotional deregulation, a distorted sense of reality, and an ever-changing sense of self. My therapy plan is getting a week-long extension, allowing for more individual time with my therapist. More reality checks are a key part of my recovery.
The author recounts a traumatic past relationship marked by co-dependence, manipulation, jealousy, emotional abuse and infidelity. A therapy session highlighting values, relationship red flags, and dealing with trauma brought forth overwhelming memories of these experiences. The author's ex-partner's lack of consideration and unkind accusations, stemming from his potential antisocial personality disorder, amplified the author's own struggle with borderline personality disorder, adding emotional intensity, conflict, and trauma to the relationship.