For the most part, I really enjoy the treatment program that I’m in. I feel that CBT & DBT really resonate with me. Not only does it make logical sense, but it’s very relaxed and forgiving. I really think that had it been strict and regimented, I would be in opposition to it the whole time. Everything that I’ve learned through treatment has proven useful in a lot of ways. Not only with addiction recovery, but depression, anxiety, mood stabilization, dealing with stressors, and more. Today, however… Today has been difficult. I left the house feeling annoyed today. I don’t…
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Well, today has been a shit show. This morning, I was not in the best of moods. I was able to calm down after I got some more rest though. Luckily, I got paid so I was able to get some new socks. Six pairs. I’m definitely grateful for that, and I was able to get a vape and pay my great aunt back some of the money I owe her. My next payment has to go to her and cat food. Then, I hope I’m caught up on nearly everything that I need. Tonight, I met a cousin of…
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I just remembered how on Monday night, or Tuesday morning I got so upset I swallowed 4 gulps of pills. An entire handful. I had to take four swigs of water to get them all down. Then, I laid down and waited and fear sank in and I tired to up-chuck them. That didn’t work. So, I just went back to sleep. Woke up about an hour later to this ungodly ringing in my ears. Realized it was a sign of the end coming, so I went back to sleep so I wouldn’t have to be awake for the…