Breathe… 1, 2, 3.

Heh. I always want to start the blog with “So,…” as though I’m conversing with someone.

Anyway, I took yesterday off from blogging on this blog. I wanted to mention that I had time to speak to my therapist one-on-one about the secret shame. I think it was a pretty monumental moment I had on Wednesday. I don’t know how much I want to divulge quite yet. It deals with the trauma from my childhood. I will say that I have a lot of work to do in that department. I started the work, but It’s going to be very hard to process everything. It’s also necessary.

Giving myself the day off yesterday from therapy blogging has allowed me to get a good start on my friend’s website. There’s a lot more work to do on it before it nears completion but I will be making a lot of time this weekend. I must get this going because I can add it to my portfolio. Speaking of which, I just figured out my next lead, which is exciting.

On an unrelated note, I can feel that my patience is pretty low today. Not sure why, but I’ve been practicing breathing techniques, mindfulness, and other coping techniques to encourage it to change. It might either be that I’m on a medication that interferes with my normal eating schedule or that I’m low on vaping today because I have to get a new one. I was hoping to get a mod by now but I’ve been buying disposables because I wanted the website development software.

I think I’m going to ask to use the family room in individual time (IT) because I want to get some more work done and be productive. When I sit with the others, we tend to spend a lot of time chatting. Primarily my fault. LOL

Can I just say; I’m really frustrated that everything costs so much these days! I mean, I get it. Inflation and all that jazz. It’s just very difficult to get a start on anything without already having a start. It isn’t easy starting out on the bottom. A lesson I hope not to forget when I do well.